Friday, August 11, 2006
Hey Tim,
You did it again, but nevermind lar I understand. And my roommate is not
doggish like you. not at all. and no one sees me do qt cos no one really is
awake at 8am. This is short.
(The continuation).
There are nice people here and not so nice people. It just happens that the
epitome of the latter is my roommate. He calls me a fucking idiot for not
playing winning eleven. When we play Fifa, he gloats over me at every
opportunity. ok he does that to everyone, but especially me. I can't really
stand him and I'm just trying to cool off right now. So in a sense, although
I probably will miss this place, there isn't really much to miss.
One thing I realise is that I can't really resist the urge to prove myself.
To prove that I'm good at soccer (he was taunting me for letting in a goal
from past the halfway line. ok, first it was past the halfway line and
secondly it went in the top left corner but he still thinks i'm rubbish). So
what I'm getting at is that I haven't really fully broken free from trying
to prove myself, which is why I still have this wedge between him and me.
I'll never be able to prove I'm better at soccer or ok at fifa to him cos he
will never see that, and if I try to say something about it, its just going
to make me angrier and provoke him to making me feel worse (it happens all
the time). So in short, I should try to keep away from him. I think.
I managed to weasel my way out of doing the final presentations for both
classes. In creative it was more of a choice, so I obviously said no while
in persuavive, I had to persuade them not to use my pieces, and I think the
teacher wasnt too happy with that. I mean I can understand its my fault, as
I should have told her earlier so she could choose other people's work
instead, so I apologised to her.
Meanwhile, I've no idea what I'm gonna do now cos it looks like I'm not
going back to that room for a while, so maybe I'll start packing up? I just
get this feeling I messed up this whole thing, like yes I learnt new stuff
but I could have done so much more. And don't worry about the roommate
thing. I'm not sad or angry or having any emotion you think I may be having.
So don't worry.
Si Yan
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